I want to feel so much more.

I want to feel so much more with you but there is something holding it back. I have deep feelings for you already and I shouldn’t. The 1^st time I seen you this year I was like damn then every time I seen your pictures or you the world became smaller and smaller and not much mattered anymore. I want to give you all my heart but my heart is already put into this more than it should. The night you told me you didn’t want anything to series my heart dropped because I want to find someone to be with forever. I guess you never know it could end up more than what you want. I don’t go for guys like you but something inside of me said it was ok. I’m used to being abused and lie to I hope this don’t turn on me. Maybe I’m use to moving fast or it’s you not doing what a boyfriend should do. I text you 1^st when it should be you texting me in the morning, making sure I’m ok during the day and the last person I talk to at night. But I think you forgot or you just don’t care. I get you have so much going on but I have a whole new world you think you no but you don’t. Looking inside a bottle doesn’t show you much but breaking it open can show you so much and you haven’t even tried to break the surface of me yet. I’m not going to be the man of this relationship. I don’t care if you don’t want to be in a relationship for another mouth but then you shouldn’t be leading me on, Dates, movies, dinner and more. I hope things change soon. I don’t want to have sex with in till I am really in love. I hope I don’t get fall for you hard. I want to feel so much more with you but something will come crashing and it will be game over. It seems like when I have what I want it gets taken away from me. I’m going to hold onto you and hope that you’re not going to fly away from me.

By Hannah Wethern